未来 へ Looking ahead
I was supposed to go and jog 20 laps on the Ultra PSC Oval this morning right after Philo class but when I got there, I found the field in the middle of the track packed with grade school football players – presumably from La Salle Greenhills as I saw their bus parked just a few blocks away. Well ok, there was a game, and it threw me off my routine. Never mind I just went right home to check my email.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the near future – will I still have all this free time to go to Ultra, or go home and loll around in 4 month’s time? By then, I’ll have graduated (if all goes well, ie no technical complications that would disastrously hinder my chances of getting out of college this March). Will I immediately be working? Or will I have to go through the usual cycle of applications, submitting resumes, anticipating return calls and waiting for follow-up calls until finally the coveted “You’re hired?”.
It is getting harder for me to concentrate on school work since I can’t help but think about how all these will mean nothing once I get into the real world. I mean, these are the things I would be saying goodbye to in several months time:
- 長いテスト、中間および口頭試験
- ほとんどあらゆる主題のための5インチの厚い読書、
- 私が駐車スロットを見つけることができないので学校への運転および遅いがあること。 様々な喫煙者の小型の庭の反射の時間、Bellarmineにdeラコスタ、完全に隔離されたものとCTC-SOMおよびFaura、である私の好み。
- クラスに出入して玄関に沿って歩くこと。
本を、長いすの賦課金に借りることを、図書館に行って写真複写されるある読書が読んだ雑誌をある。 教師が皆を呼ぶことにする場合のクラスに目覚め、加わらせる 月が前に締切割り当てられたが、賦課金の前の2日だけに取り組まれたペーパーおよびプロジェクト。 登録-無言で祈っている間私が200の下で少なくとも1つを得た私の最初選択でなかった教師を選ぶ悩ませたプロセスへの乱数の最初の点検からの…。 - クラブでき事の出席。
- 12:30 pmの家に行き、日の残りのための睡眠。
私はこれらの経験を逃す、けれども同時に私は去るために待ち時間を傾ける。 年後に、私はそれが一度学生であるためにいかにのように感じたか忘れている。 私はちょうど知っている。 私の優先順位に突然の転位がある。 私は私が今より育ち、高度に私の行為を担当させる。 私は私がまだ約社会的ななまけ者であることを行ってもいいかどうか疑問に思うか。 団体の世界の私の不断の先延ばしにする方法のための部屋があるか。 私がちょうど今消えることができれば3月までに新しい表紙を付ければ。
No more:
1. Long Tests, Midterms and Oral exams with thesis statements that run a mile long
2. 5 inch thick readings, for almost every subject
3. Driving to school and being late because I can’t find a parking slot.
4. Spending reflection time at various Smoker’s Pocket Gardens, my favorites being De la Costa, CTC-SOM and Faura, Plus the perfectly isolated one at Bellarmine.
5. Walking along the hallways to and from classes
6. Going to the library to borrow a book, settle dues, have some readings photocopied, read magazines
7. Being forced to wake up and participate in class when the teacher decides to call everyone for recitation
8. Projects and papers that were assigned a month before the deadline but worked on only 2 days before its due
9. Registration – from the initial checking of random numbers while silently praying I got at least one below 200, to the harassed process of selecting teachers who weren’t my first choice
10. Attending org events
11. Going home at 12:30 pm and sleeping for the rest of the day
I will miss these experiences, yet at the same time I cant wait to leave. After a year, I will forget how it once felt like to be a student. I just know.
There will be a sudden shift in my priorities. I will be forced to grow up and be responsible for my actions to a higher degree than I do now. I wonder if I can still go about being a social loafer? Will there be room for my perennial procrastinating ways in the corporate world?
If I could just disappear right now, and resurface by March.
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